Tuesday, May 30, 2006
I'm not saying my hearts' been broken. I just don't wanna continue feeling being in denial anymore. I was MSN-ing w/ him a while ago. And it just hit me. Justine, it's not gonna work. GET OVER IT. Fuck.I don't like this feeling. I don't like this feeling at all. I feel it and it's growing. I don't want it to grow. I know you guys are reading this right now and thinking, "Man, go for it." But I can't it's too hard. And even though I'm saying this right now, these qualms are really giving me a hard time. I'm in super denial. I'm always saying, I don't want, I'm sick of it, but at the end of the day who's on my mind? GO FIGURE.
me: i wanna have a relaxed relationship now. even so, not a relationship
me: someone i can care for. haha i miss caring for someone
him: wernt u lookn for a [serious/real] relationship b4? now u aint
me: it's not really the issue of REAL or not..i was thinking about it..
me: as long as you're just there for each other it doesnt matter
him: yeah, but u gta be ther for the other person the same way
him: gets?
me: u mean balanced?
him: yeah. u cnt be givin more or takin more. bsta, for both parties, its gta be on the same level to realy have that ideal relationship
me: exactly. ur right.
me: but if i keep on looking for that then i can never find it
him: wel u dnt look for it, itl come naturaly
him: i dint know i was lookn for love til it came to me, love found me
him: hehehehe
him: if u try to hard, then ur jus gna gve urself a hard time
me: when i have it, i tend to look for more. and i don't wanna be lilke that anymore.
me: i just wanna receive what's being given to me and be satisfied with it.
him: ur hard
him: hahahahaha
him: brat
him: hahahahaha
me: yeah. i dont wanna be that complicated girl anymore.
him: yupz
me: fuck it lah. hahaha i'm sick already hahaha
him: hahahaha
him: chillax
Please decipher the message from above. I know I'm NOT making sense.
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