Oh Juice!

Take 2
Saturday, July 08, 2006

Somehow listening to both Coldplay's A Rush of Blood to the Head and Parachutes (my 2 most favorite albums in the whole wide world and the albums I can listen to NONSTOP) is making me post some ambiguosity (is there such a word?). Anyway, let's get on with it before I change my mind.

Mistakes are inevitable. It's one part of our life which we can't avoid. They're always in front of us, or if not, chasing us. And as a person, my life has always been an open-book. I'm not one who keeps everything to herself coz as a person capable of having anxiety attacks, having everything locked up inside me apparently murders my emotions. Don't know what I'm talking about? Well you will, soon.

The Biggest Mistakes in my LIFE

- I lost a very good friendship with 3 girls. Just because I fooled around with one of their boyfriends. Until now, they are still together, for 6 years. I am still quite close with her boyfriend, but I can never look at her in the eye anymore. It's been 4 years since that incident, and my friendship with those girls have never been repaired eversince.

- I slept with the wrongest guy. He was 25, I was 17. I don't know what got into me. And I don't wanna talk about it anymore. ENOUGH.

- I myself knew that I was OCHLOPHOBIC, yet I still went out to a big festivals fireworx display and the number of people were just soo overwhelming! I woke up the next day unable to breath properly recalling the night, had an anxiety attack and had to be rushed to the ER because of it. The outcome, 4 days confined in the hospital.

These are just the ones I can remember right now. Recalling them can shatter me into pieces. I don't know what made me share this into the blogging world. I know I am an imperfect person and each and everyone of us have the capability of making mistakes. We don't know what makes us DO those mistakes that time. But when we reflect on it, we think, "What the hell made us do that?!" and we can't regret because there's just no use of deprecation anymore. It's been made and done.

I am who I am, and I will leave you to your own judgement after having read this post. I did not intend these to happen in my life, yet they did. As much I as I want to regret them, they have made me who I am now, and I definitely learnt something from them. They are experiences after all, and experiences are one of the fundamentals in life.

Bow.

I would like to greet a HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my BF (note: BestFriend =p) Karl. Have fun in Bali! Gawd, I envy youuuu.

Oh and my TAGBOARD IS BAAACK. Thanks to Talamasca. =P

♥ Justine
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